Hi, I'm Barb. I was an agnostic until age 37, then had a hard time deciding what I believe about the role of a Higher Power in my life.
I had a hard time using the word "God" at first because I didn't believe God had gender (just like mountains and clouds aren't gendered).
For a while I used "Godde" because it was halfway between God and Goddess. Now I don't care and I use "God" because it's expedient. But maybe "God" just doesn't work for you. That's ok. As long as you believe there is something, some force, some principle that's more powerful than you, that's all you need. It could be gravity, it could be the process of evolution, it would be nature, the universe, spirals. As long as it's more powerful than you, that's what's required to rely on a Higher Power.
Even though I was spiritual before recovery, it was nothing like it is now. I have a RELATIONSHIP with my Higher Power. I USE God all the time ("Please show me your will and give me the power to carry it out") and I ask God to use me all the time. The ability to turn things over to God has been the single most important part of my recovery. I don't have to be in charge all the time. I used to feel like I had to be in charge. The #1 thing I hand over to my HP is my thoughts. I can't tell you what a relief it is to know I'm not in charge, and there's something out there that has my best interests in mind. If you want to know more about me, click on the link to my bio on the right.
My top 5 podcast episodes for people who want to stop hating themselves:
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Spirituality that works and
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Spiritual Beliefs Worksheet
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"[I appreciated] your ability to really look at the deeper spiritual aspects while we talked about very concrete objectives in my work...marrying .being results-focused and spiritually minded - I thought you were just a really natural fusion of the two." ~ P.
"Barb is an incredible listener and a powerful partner in thinking through difficult topics. She comes to the table with her authentic self which allows for really catalytic progress without feeling rushed. She is incisive but compassionate and is not afraid to sit with pain and joy. She set me on an amazing trajectory after just meeting once!" ~ M.